for being such a fucking bitch, mother. I appreciate the complete lack of confidence/faith/trust you have in me.

1. I'm 22 years old anyway
2. HE'S NOT EVEN HERE
3. I already know your damn rule

URGH! You make me want to sharpen my katana sometimes -.- I thought today would be good. Nice and relaxing with at least some form of exercise thrown in, but now I can't even focus on dancing without wanting to stop and just release the tension in my arms by punching something or wanting to break down into tears yet again because I can't ever do enough right in your eyes so you'll trust me. What the hell have I done wrong? I always obey you. I do what is asked of me and I never tell you 'no' as much as I'd love to at times... I never tell you 'no'. You know, if you're so afraid of losing another daughter, why don't you treat her better before she leaves the state entirely and decides to never talk to you again because she doesn't want to deal with the stress you've caused her? Hmm? Oh wait, I forgot... that requires you to stop nagging or always assuming I'm doing something bad despite my years and years of what I would consider good behavior.

You don't even realize how much you keep pushing me away and I could never tell you because whenever I stand up for myself, I'm a bad person.

I wish I never had to leave.

[EDIT]
I just need to focus on how he makes me feel and how good he looked to keep from being so stressed with her.